Greetings, my dear readers. First I want to express my appreciation for your responses to my blog postings. It is so rewarding to know that there are so many of you that share this common experience with me that we call, loosely, “crossdressing”. Perhaps a better term is “gender fluid.” That pretty much works for me, as we all have a sense of who we are that is much broader than the confining role of the traditional binary male. I can’t imagine going back to being the macho male I once pretended to be (I say “pretended” because that was never who I really was) and wearing those heavy, scratchy underwear. Thinking about this fascinating journey of embracing the inner femme that we know ourselves to be, I started wondering about what got us all started on this journey.
I’ve read a lot of posts on various sites, regarding crossdressing folks like us, and have found there are many starting points. Some have sisters, and got started by exploring their sister’s panty drawer, or closet in search of the perfect skirt or dress. Others went foraging in their mom’s closet and dresser. Others didn’t have a sense of their femme self until later in life and lived, or do live, in fear of discovery by their wives. Others, the most fortunate of all, have a spouse that is totally okay with the feminine side of her husband or significant other, and lives happily in the gender fluid world with him.
So, I have a question for you: what got you started, and at what age? When did you first slip on that luscious pair of panties and know you were hooked – that this was a part of who you are? When did you first try on that first bra, or blouse, or skirt, and know that this was something you just had to do? We all had some starting point that led to where we are now, and I would love to hear your stories. By reading the blogs here at Xdress, surely by now you know you are far from alone in this fascinating world of the gender fluid; you are part of a virtual community here at Xdress. Tell me your story – I would love to hear it!
Fondest regards,
Angie
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Hi, great blog and a great website.
For me it was my sisters, they started dressing me in girly clothes when I was extremely young, when I got to about 10 years old my parents made them stop, so I started stealing their clothes in secret, I wore their knickers, dress and skirts mainly, then I met my girlfriend (now fiancé) and shared with her my desires to wear feminine clothes, she straight away wanted to see so she threw me a thong and told me to put it on, since then she’s bought me tonnes of clothes and we like to both dress up in sexy lingerie for bed and sometimes just for fun.
I am sorry I got cut off. I remember when I was younger when we were dressing up for Halloween and my friends told me I should have been a girl. I loved that compliment. I have no male panties. I wear nighties and nightshirts.I always wear baby dolls. I guess I should have been a girl. I love experimenting with makeup. I am really becoming quite good at applying it..I love buying clothes at xdress. I use a dilapator once a month all over my body and I shave my privates 2-3 times a week.
I have been xdressing for most of life I started with panties then leotards tights and dresses. I have always worn toe nail polish and I love doing my eyes and my brows I think I am more fem than male. I
I like your blog .I started at 9 with my sister pantyhose .i.sore them to sleep in .Over the year I crossdress of and on getting more then just pantyhose i’’m. with a lady who want me share my love for cross dressing with her thank sydney
For me, it started at about 6 years old or possibly even earlier as I can’t remember a time when it wasn’t something I thought about. I had no sisters and my only opportunity was to try my Mothers clothing. I have always felt more like a girl than a guy. I have always hated wearing masculine clothing and “dressed up” at every opportunity I had. My entire life I have always felt like a woman and even watching TV commercials for female items like clothing or makeup or any type of beauty products always make me long to live fulltime in complete female mode. I got a job that is considered very masculine that I loved but always dreamed of being able to do it while in fem mode. I got married to a fantastic wife who I shared my secret with. She went along with it for years but never showed as much enthusiasm for it like I have and over the past 20 years or so, we haven’t done anything like that anymore. I keep my pretty things hidden and while she still occasionally talks about it, that’s as far as it ever goes anymore. I am at my happiest while dressed up and have no idea how to pursue it further than I have. Only when “dressed up” in feminine things and with pretty makeup on (done delicately, not garish like a drag queen) do I feel “right”. I would love to go shopping while dressed up and be able to try clothing on while shopping. I have considered that it is possible I’m a TS and Bi, but I am terrified of losing my marriage over it. The clothing doesn’t even have to be lacy dresses and skirts, just obviously female items. Only when I put on panties, bra, garter belt with stockings and a pretty outfit do I truly feel like myself. It has been the greatest experience of my life while at the same time leaving me guilt-ridden, ashamed and scared I will never live out my dream of doing it full time. If anyone has been in this type of situation and figured out a better way, I would love to hear about how you accomplished your dream. Being “dressed up” isn’t just a sexual thing, it is just what makes me feel like my true being.