How do I accept that I'm fem? I know it in my brain, but I can't seem to accept it in my heart that I'm just not a stereotypical manly man.
From the minute we are born, we exist in a world where people insist gender is a binary. Either BOY or GIRL. For everything and anything. The blanket we are swaddled in, a few moments after we take our first breath, is pink or blue and how we are treated and raised begins right then and there. From that moment on, we are burdened with what a boy should and should not do or think or feel or wear. Forever and always.
This is done out of habit and tradition, but really, it makes no sense why we are forced to stay within these boundaries. People are generally uncomfortable with others who go against these arbitrary rules and will do their best to shame someone to "act like a man" or "be more ladylike". We are ridiculed and ostracized and told we are wrong and confused and that we are sinning.
People are complex and things like the color pink and the softness of a nightie can be, and are, enjoyed by countless others, regardless of the blanket color that someone was wrapped in..
The shame or guilt or other emotions the world is trying to make you feel will likely work their way into your own heart and mind and suddenly something that you feel or something that you wear makes you feel, well, wrong. Your gender identity, how you feel about yourself, who you are, and what you wear is up to you. Please don't let others who insist on arbitrary rules prevent you from being who you are.
And really, what is a stereotypical manly man? Sure, on a surface level your best friend might be watching football and crushing beer cans on his forehead but that's what you SEE. He might be wearing a thong from XDress under his rugged flannel shirt and mud caked jeans. He might be listening to Sabrina Carpenter as he takes his axe to split firewood. The point is that you don't know who someone is beyond what they reveal to you.
Love, Hannah
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6 comments
Hannah
I love your answer your gave for head vs heart. I’m married with children, but i really like wearing women’s panties. It makes me feel sexy. My problem is I feel ashamed and embrassed that my friends might find out and i don’t think they would understand. I know they would make fun of me, and probably call me a sissy. Reading your answer i’m going to follow my heart and do want I feel inside.
Thank you
John